I feel kind of stupid because my mom got me out of working. I was ready to accept Saturdays because I really didn’t have much of an excuse. I wonder if this just means my mom loves me that much. XD; That’s nice of her, but I wish I weren’t so weak, that I could just say “I don’t want to work” on my own and without anyone interfering. I wouldn’t mind so much if I were never to see them again, but it seems…well, just weird since I’ll see them for an appointment occasionally. My mom once said that it’d be possible to change dentists, but it seems weird, doesn’t it? Like running away. Meh, I do think it’s logical to quit. If I only worked on every other Saturday, I think I’d get so much deducted that I wouldn’t make anything. XD Besides, I’m limited on my hours because I’d have to get home before a certain time.
May 26, 2006
May 25, 2006
Emotastic
I wish I weren’t such a wimp. I wish I didn’t care. Why can’t I ever say what I want?
May 17, 2006
In Which Amy Panics pt 1
Nooo, damn it, don’t try to keep me! This job makes me miserable! XD I’m glad to find out that there’s a chance he hired another girl who plans to be a dentist though. That means MAYBE he won’t ask. Meh, I’m not passionate about the job anyway. I think it works more for her even if she’s only working 3 days a week. Hmm, I wonder if I can find an internship so that I can work at a place that’s literature-related…
March 30, 2006
Damn Angst pt 1
I don’t need this.
I hate feeling inadequate. I already know I’m not pretty, not smart, not tall, not skinny, not fast, and the list goes on. I don’t need anyone to REMIND me. Do you think I can’t tell from looking at myself everyday? From being with myself–being myself–every day for my whole life? I know myself better than you do. It doesn’t matter if you’re a psychologist or whatever. I know me. I see me. I am me. (more…)
