Determination to Change

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything in here. Well, it’s nearly the end of the Spring semester and we’re approaching summer. It’s strange, but I think my mindset has changed just recently, maybe but a few hours or a day ago.

I want to change myself. I’ve been thinking this since Sunday morning. I felt embarrassed by my ignorance. I’m tired of feeling this way. I want to change myself and not have any regrets. I don’t want to waste away when I have only one life. I don’t want that last moment before the “eternal black out” takes over me to be a sad one. I don’t want to be screaming and crying out in sadness.

Prelude to “Sky and Sea”

A white bird soars through the vast and clear sky
with its wings unfurled in flight.

Can I be that bird?

I want to bask in the golden glow and dance on wind’s current
to a palace filled with hopes and dreams.

(a wonderland free of obligations and promises)

Tragedy

It’s not much, but when considering my inactivity, maybe it’s enough.

Tragedy
You expect me to understand your tragedy
Without an explanation.

You expect me to understand your tragedy,
But I can’t offer more than a half-hearted apology.

I want to understand your tragedy
Because I was the unintended catalyst.

Inspiration in terms of style: Higurashi no Naku Koro ni

I can say it in a simple manner. I can say that one word, but little more can be said.

EDITED: I’ll keep that in mind. That saying what I can may help.

The Prince of Dreams pt1

I wanted to work on characterization for a story I plan to write for the Writer’s Digest Fiction Contest, so I decided to write fifty sentences about one character. The idea is from 1character; I haven’t claimed it because well, I doubt anyone would use my character. Anyway, I wrote eight so far. It took longer than I thought it would to write a couple of sentences. I guess it’s because it’s compact and not so superfluous?